ok...
maybe this was the dae i was realy waiting for..!!??!!
i dun know..
but trust me..
i studies for mi SS test for 2 weeks..
n guess wat..
i forgoted watever i study aft my PE lesson..
seriously...
IMAGINE...
its a must for u to forget abt a incident which really made u crack into pieces..
soo small n sharp tht..
even aft 2 solid yrs..
u cant find a solution to paste is back..
trust me..
it was sooo tough todae..
he ask me to forget abt the past..
HAHAHAHA..
he thinks its too easy..
he said that he was shock to hear that i still remember abt this incident even aft 2 yrs..
hah..
:'[
i even told him tht ...
EVEN AT THE VERY LAST MOMENT BEFORE EVERYTHING GOT OVER HAND..
SHE PROMISED MI SAYING..
"Devi wat ever happens i will be there for u till the end.."
but atlast..
EVERYTHING WAS SIMPLY FAKE..
CAN U IMAGINE...
-HER LIKES WERE YR LIKES
-HER HATES WERE YR HATES
-HER HAPPINESS WERE YR HAPPINESS
-HER SADNESS WERE YR SADNESS
but now realising tht its now NO MORE..
GOD IT SERIOUSLY HURTS..
iwas toking to him n half way started sobbing..
i controlled miself n quickly took mi hp n stared to play with it hoping tht i can control my tears..
trust mi..
i was praying tht someone must grab me out of the place we were toking...
i seriously cant take it..
goodness sake..
jes n thiviya came..
they ask wat happened??
half way through mr conversation..
i didn't had the strength to control it..
i let i go..
mumbling "how can he jus ask mi to forget it.."
ppl around mi even started to ask abt her..
one of mi frend, she came to mi n asked mi where are the 5FRENDS..
why she can only see 4FRENDS..
she asked mi where was the other ONE FREND..
wt do u aspect mi to tell her..
My mum..
she asked mi why i didn't tok abt her now adays.. am i still hving contact with her n stuf..
U KNOW..
HOW IT REALLI HURTS..
I JUST NEED A DAY WITH HIM TO TOK N MKE MI FEEL BETTER..
todae since jes n thiviya dragged mi half way which was for mi good..
we left the conversation hanging half way..
MY DEAR FREND..
IT REALLY HURTS..
I SIMPLY ONLY CAN CRY MY HEART OUT TO EXPLAIN IT TO U HOW HURTFUL IT IS..

**sometimes i really feeling like shouting at her face, trust mi..
its so..
HAIZ..
im back to mi old habbit..
the ppl around mi are very concern but when they got to know the reason for my change..they simply dun want to accept tht it really makes u feel better..sometimes toking really wun work u see..
lol..
=[

life;full of drama =]