life;full of drama =]

I KNOW I'M NOT PERFECT..!!

Lying here

Watching my whole past pass me by

Walking on like they’ve forgotten

Moving on

Looks like they got impatient

Looks like I’ve hit another wall

Only this one’s stronger

And it won’t budge. Not for me

Lying here

Lying here so many times

Yet I’ve never looked at the world this way

Never seen it backwards before

This world so full of people

All moving so quickly around me

These people I used to know

Somewhere lost deep in memories past

I'm not even sure what my face says these days

Whatever it is it’s probably a lie

I keep digging this hole

Like I want to stay living here

Most of the time I don’t think I can do this

Most of the time I'm having to say sorry

Split seconds of comfort keep me alive

Most of the time

A hand grabs hold of mine

Like it needs me again

Only this time it’s holding onto me to stop me falling

And this time I pull away. Let go

This time is different

This time I’m not saying sorry

I'm going to get up and leave on my own

This time I’m not saying sorry

I don’t know anyone anymore

They’re all my past

And my past is walking away from me

This time I'm not saying sorry

It shouldn’t hurt like this

It shouldn’t be hard to live

It shouldn’t be so easy to turn your back on me

It shouldn’t be like this

Thinking makes me sick

Thinking about anything for too long

Thinking about anything makes me sick

Thinking about this makes me sick

It’d be nice to know someone has me surrounded

Curled up, safe, asleep

Asleep in cupped hands

Protected.

Believe me when I say

I’m really not okay with this

These tears are going nowhere

This is going nowhere

I am going nowhere

I wonder

Would they notice

If I wasn’t here

Somehow I doubt it

I just wish I was strong enough to find out

They’re not enough anymore

They’re not there for me the way they used to be

I guess they’re just tired

It’d be nice of them to stay a while

See me through this

But if I didn’t hurt them so much maybe they would

But this time I'm not saying sorry

I can't do this alone

But I'm not hurting people again

I can't do this at all

But I will

Nothing can comfort me tonight

Everything hurts

I ache all over

Ache with this

Lucidity

Never been so far

I can't take interest in my head tonight

Sometimes I wish they’d let me die

I’ve nowhere else to turn to

I guess that means face. Fight

Leave me to fend for myself if you love me

I won’t tell you how I'm feeling

This time I'm not saying sorry.

life;full of drama =]

Some people think of Teen Love and smile. It's not real love, they say. Puppy Love, they call it. Those people, I think, have very short memories, and no longer recall the realities of their first love experiences. While few expect teen love to last a lifetime, that hardly makes it less real. Half or more of all adult love doesn't last a lifetime either.

Teen love is very real. And powerful. Perhaps at no other time in our lives are the joys and pains felt as strongly, or experienced more deeply. Who among us, after all, can ever forget our first love?